2. I wanted to be loved so much, I acted “phony” instead of being myself
“I don’t think he ever got to know who I really was.” This is a case of being regretful by wondering if she would have had a better relationship if she had just been herself. It’s better to take the plunge in order to have a long and unrestrained relationship – “If he doesn’t like me the way I am, then that’s all there is to it!”